I WANNA BE DRUNK WHEN I WAKE UP..

00:51


...no, not really.

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Hot cacao in my hands? Check ✓
Clean desk? Check ✓

Let's go..

You know what sucks? Having three glasses of wine and being on a literall verge of drunk AF.
Like, when did that happen?

It's been quite some time since the last time I went out partying, and by that, there's also been quite some time I consumed a bit more alcohol, which is why I probably get so easily drunk these days. I know what you might think; lucky you, you don't have to spend so much money on alcohol when you go out. Well no. It's quite embarasing actually. Here's why:

1. I get lazy eye soon after finishing first glass
2. I get super chatty after second glass
3. I have to stop drinking after glass n. 3 because I'm just not the same level as everyone else I'm just having a casual mid-week dinner with
4. just because, 3 glasses? Really? *rolling eyes*

..I feel I could go on, but you can clearly tell that's not normal. It especially sucks when I'm on a date (not that I date that much, but it happens..), and I'm nervous and I already have to think about so many things, I then also have to think about keeping my eye as open as I can, I have to make sure I don't start babbling too much... You know, just first dates struggles intensified by a milion.

But overall, wine is so much fun. I love that it makes me laugh even harder, I love how easy it makes me feel, I love how everything around kinda goes away and you're in the big bubble with your friends having the best time and not giving a fuck about anything.
Yes, I realize I just described first stage of drunkenness, but it's the best stage. Everything after that is just whatever.

Oh how I've changed. I used to live for the weekend night outs and getting smashed. Now when I get drunk, it's usually unplanned and unintentional. I feel like the faze of going out and all will kick me again for sure, but for right now, I prefer more low key parties and hang outs with friends.

It's my day off today my friends and I'm about to hit the city for a coffee! Much needed! xxo

JUST SHOOT ME ALREADY

11:36



Dear Cupid. You're stupid.

It's been exactly 26 years, 6 months and twenty something days that you clearly haven't thought about me, much less decided to make me one of you targets. Shame.

Maybe your arrows are limited per year, but hey man, 26 years?

I don't know why exactly, but there were a few people in my life that have been stunned when they heard I'd like to be in a relationship, and even more stunned when I told them I want a family.
I've been wishing for a family of my own for such a long time, and my desire for kids is kinda unexplainable. If you know me for real, you know that's something I hope for and most frequently talk about. You would also know that by reading my blog. Just saying.

So why is it some people get the impression I want none of that? Is that what Cupid thinks to and that's why my love life is how it is? As in non exsisting at all?
But in all seriousness, how can you tell that by just the looks of me? You judgy motherfucker.
I do believe I seem a bit unapproachable, I've also been told so, but it's not like I can change my face. Anyways, Cupid, I think it's time to hook me up. I'm really nice, I swear.

Despite being single on every Valentine's day, I still love the idea of this holiday and I love to celebrate it. It's cute, plus is just another excuse to buy something new and drink few glasses more with no regret.

Yes you should express love each day and bla bla bla, but as if you and your partner do that everyday. As if he buys you flowers all the time, as if you buy new lingerie and surprise him, and AS IF you still have sex all the time. There are a lot of couples that maintain that on daily, or at least weekly bases but I'm afraid there are even more couples that don't. You see, I think Valentines day is a nice reminder to catch up on all the things you wanted to, but forgot to do prior 2/14.
Where's the harm in that?

It is a super commercialized holiday sure, but so it's Christmas and there are thousands of beautiful memories we hold of that day. As we do of many other days yes I know, but you see where I'm going?

My Valentine's days are different every year, always fun and sweet (as in chocolate sweet), but I really look forward of spending it with someone who I could flash my new lingerie to.
Hearing this stupid Cupid?

What do you think about Valentines' day? Love it, hate it, ignore it?

Talk to you soooon, xx