/// LA LA LAND



 I was overwhelmed with feelings as I watched Sebastian and Mia's first date scene in La la Land. It was the cutest, the most real demonstration of a first date, and for a moment I felt like I was the one sitting next to Sebastian feeling all nervous and excited of what was about to happen. 
Not a lot of movies these days have the power of  making you feel like you are the one in the movie, much less making you feel like you went straight back to high school hallways blushing like crazy after your crush just said hi to you.
Minus all the musical parts of the movie, because I'm just not into the whole singing dialogues thing, it was a perfect story and it made me think about how much has the dating game changed and how cool it would be to bring it all back. 
Dates should be fun, different..for dates we should dress up not dress down because we don't want to give the other one the feeling we dressed up for them, when in fact that's what we want to do. 
There are far too many games in the dating world these days. Can we go back to if we like each other, we don't have to wait three thousand years to text back, can we dress nicely for our dates that are not just a coffee in the city, can we openly talk about how much we like each other and not run away because of that fact. Can we make our first kiss special. Can we stay up all night talking on the phone and barely wake up in the morning and make it oh-so worth it? Can we?
I love boarding games, I'm all up for drinking games and there are so many fun games we could play behind closed doors, so why would anyone feel the need to play games that can make the other feel sad or unwanted. Only a sucky someone, that's who.
If you haven't already, go and see La la land and see what's it all about. It's about so much more than just their perfect dates and love for one another. It also shows how love sometimes just isn't enough. Which is kinda sad. Sadly real. 
Everything is on point with this movie, it's so real, and inspirational but it has that bitter feel to it, just like life does. It's so honest and real. I've already said that haven't I.
Go and see it! Go and see my instagram too :P

WHITE FERRARI


Good morning everybody! Oh wait..I've overslept the whole morning?!

It's almost 3PM and I've just now awoken completely. It's been forever that I slept so long, and it feels great. I really needed that. Obviously since I haven't even remotely heard the alarm go off.
It has a lot to do with the fact that I haven't had time to sleep for the past few weeks, plus this week was pretty crazy with working all the time and preparations for my brothers birthday/goodbye surprise party, that was, after so much that went wrong, a great success after all!

 Sundays are not only the best because it's literally my only day off work, but also because you can feel the calmness in the air, the noise dissipates for a moment and you can take a deep breath without having to stress about what you all still have to do. What I also love about Sundays is that I wear absolutely no make up. Sundays are a day off for me and my face hehe.

I love spending Sundays a 100% solo, doing absolutely nothing and usually catching up on my book that I can't seem to find the time to finish it. It's crazy isn't it. We live a life where something like reading a book becomes a luxury. We seem to make time for everything else first than for the things, the little things we love to do. I feel like we postpone those little things because there is a voice in our head that tells us that we'll have the time later in life to do all we'll miss doing now, but I think that voice is being kinda stupid.
You never know what life brings you, so you, we, should do what we want to do, or at least take more time to do the the things we forget to put in our busy schedules.
What I would like to see more on my schedule, and I will make sure I see more of, is reading, definitely, baking (god I miss that!), take more time to hang out with my friends and visiting my grandparents even more often.

 This year has started out pretty good and I'm feeling much better than I did. New beginnings and renewed mindset is all we need sometimes. That and a good book!

And if you are wondering, no I don't, nor I want to have a white Ferrari, but Frank Ocean was keeping me company while I was writing this post so I felt like he deserves a little credit.
Plus, Frank's latest album is the bomb so..

Oh and have you seen my new Adidas?? Whaaaaaaaat



LET'S JUST GET THIS OVER WITH


 I haven’t been a good blogger in the past year, and by that I’m referring to my almost non-existence here in my little world. I definitely want to change that in the New Year coming, but I would still love to finish this year with one last post.

 This past year has been a pretty shitty year, period. It hasn't all been bad, but I don’t believe it will be much of a year to remember. I normally do my best to stand up high no matter the situation, but 2016 really managed to knock me down, so I cannot wait for it to be over!

I feel like there are certain expectations that we, as individuals, set to ourselves each year, and no matter what the society or whoever says, if we don't achieve those expectations, we tend to feel like we've failed. It's easy to say that 2016 sucks, but the reality is, I suck. But the good thing is, in two days, I will (and you will too) turn a brand new page and start over. I have a good feeling about it. No new resolutions, just doing my best to accomplish the old ones. If not accomplish them, I will at least try to, put myself first, stop doing things that don't make me happy and focus more on things that do.

I did always say I'll die trying, but with so much stuff in my head, I totally forgot about trying, and I can't wait to start again! I know I could start tomorrow, but it's so much easier to start on the first of new month. It's just how it is.

I think about where and when did I get lost in the way. I was always so motivated in things I love, but this year I really got lost. How and where I have no clue. C'est la vie I guess, not all things go according to our plan, and it's the way it should be right? It all happens for a reason, and mine better be a damn good one haha.

Besides getting lost along the way, I still had some great days and moments in the past year, and those will be the ones I'll remember forever.

For the New Year, I wish you all the best of days, go towards the things you love, the people you love, get rid of the things that don't make you happy and do your best to achieve what will keep your heart warm in the long haul.

On that note, I'd like to share my top 4 moments of 2016. Cheers everyone <3

1. FRIENDS REUNION

 As three of my closest friends are all living and working abroad, we don't get to see each other as much as we used to, not even close sadly, but this summer all three girls came back from all around the world (literally..Mexico, Australia and USA) and we had such good days together. As if they had never left <3 Plus two of them came back again for Christmas holidays so I'm very excited!  


2. FAMILY TRIP

 It has been yeaaaaars since my WHOLE family went on vacation together and this year my mom and aunt made it happen again. Hope we'll do it again soon!


3. ZELENCI

 Springs Zelenci were on my bucket list for so long and this year I finally got the chance to witness this beauty in person! I've been there three times already and I can't wait to go again. 
It's a must to see if you are ever in Slovenia, I am in love with that place. The colours and surroundings are always breathtaking. 




4. TRAVELLING WITH BESTIE + CROSSING OF ANOTHER WISH ON MY BUCKET LIST

We had the best time visiting London (read about it HERE) and one of the things that was a must for me, was having an afternoon tea at Sketch. I had my eyes on Sketch restaurant for so long, and I always dreamed about that pink place. It was such a good experience, and having a brunch there felt like walking in my own dreams. 

You know when you want something for a long time, looking at the pictures all the time and then experiencing it on your own, feels amazing. Surreal actually. 

PINK+WHITE


 I find myself looking at the pictures from my London trip on daily bases, and as I’ve realized today, in my  slightly hangover mood, it’s because by looking at the pictures, I get the same feeling I had while I was there. Which was fucking awesome!  I haven’t felt like that ever since New York, that was way back in 2012, and even though there is absolutely no comparison between New York and London, the feeling both cities gave me, was the same. Well, kind of the same.

It’s not easily explainable, if even possible, but I’ll try.

P.S. By saying it’s not easily explainable I really mean it’s hard to explain and I’ve been figuring out what to write down for the last 20 minutes. Which is trust me not easy, especially because I can barely keep my eyes open due to getting home way too late yesterday.

The feeling I had is the same feeling you get when you feel like everything is where it’s supposed to be. When you feel at ease, and like you can do and be anything.

Just waking up somewhere else, gives me so much motivation and excitement for the day. What maybe a dumb thing for others; I love putting on my shoes, and make a quick run to the store that's just few steps away to pick up something I just desired to eat. I love stepping through the door and there’s something going on all the time. I love the lights that are always on, I love the sound of the cars, the sound of people talking. The constant something.

Taking the subway and observing people is probably one of my favourite things to do wherever I go. That or doing the same thing at the parks.

Big cities inspire me so much, and I need to work harder so I can soon live in one and be inspired all the time, do the things I would love to do and just experience stuff I’m now not. And I’m not being dramatic or anything, but living in a small country, the opportunities are just as small.

As I’ve said it a million times before, I love living where I do. The nature is just incredible, everything is close, my family and friends are all here, but I need, and would love to, live in the big city before I settle down. To experience as much as I can. It’s one of my biggest wishes since I can remember.

Why am I still here then you might wonder? Well because I'm a fucking idiot that's why.
Hopefully I'll get my shit together soon and pack my bags! :)

Here are some of my pictures from London.. xxo

#26


 Honestly, as soon as my birthday is over, I feel like the summer is over too. 
Is that a lame way to start of this post? I had to start somewhere, since it's like 11PM and I have to keep myself awake for the next 3,5 hours so I can than take a sleep for 5 hours during a ride to seaside, which is probably not even gonna happen because I never sleep when I want to.

Anyways, this year I turned 26, and it was super stressful for me. The age doesn't even matter as much as all the responsibilities, that come with that age, do. Where I come from, turning 26 is kinda of a big step. Big step if you've actually done something, micro step if you're just getting there. Big or small, that's a step you must take whether you like it or not. It basically means you have to be super serious, have limited days of vacations, can't call in sick when you feel like not working,..
It's like becoming an adult, but for real this time.

Being so limited with everything, and being a bit tied down, gives me anxiety. Imagine living many years on your own, taking days as they go, as you feel, and then suddenly you have to plan your vacations one year ahead. Uhh! I am of course overreacting, but I really hate changes. Really.

It's only 11:25 right now and I can barely keep my eyes open. #justsaying

Besides being stressed out about things that are normal for most of people, I had a great birthday! It was pretty chill, comparing to previous years, but I wouldn't have it any other way. The official celebration is yet to come, and I'm really excited about it because it will be totally different than other years.

It's now 15 minutes past midnight, I just finished watching last episode of Suits, and I really tried to write something more interesting, but I'm up since 6AM yesterday, and my mind is already in sleep mode for some time now. 
Gotta go pack now! I'll write more next time! :) xo

6/21


 As a true summer lover, I decided to spend first summer day how it's supposed to be spent. By the water in my new bikinis (that I just HAD to buy. Naturally.).

It wasn't untill we, me and my bestie, arrived on the location, I realized that today would also be the first day this year, I would wear my bikinis in front of people who weren't my family. As in people I know nothing about, and clearly care so much of what they think of me. Typical.
For a split second I actually considered not taking off my clothes and just tan and burn there in my shorts and t-shirt, but I soon realized that was just some bullshit running through my head.

I'm not proud to say it, but this sick precepcion of having the perfect beach body, that's no matter what, buried somewhere down in my/our subconscious, always haunts me to the point of not being as relaxed as I should be. I definitely want to work on my body and have flat belly and all, but I feel like if I'm not there yet, I should still be allowed to be on a beach or wherever the f*ck I want to be in my swimsuit and feel absolutely good about it! It's all about how we feel, and all this talk about perfect beach body surely doesn't make me feel good. All it does is make me feel like I can't post pictures where I show my belly although my face looks flawless.

I really hope you can read sarcasm in my words.

No but really, the only important thing is to enjoy beautiful days, have as much fun as you can, swim as much as you can, tan as much as you can and don't give a f*ck about what your body "should" look like. As long as you're healthy and feel good, that's all that matters.
Am I right or am I right?

One more little note before I walk my walk to bed my friends. In exactly 2 months from today I will be a year older, so make sure to check out my birthday wishlist on my Pinterest account so you can get all the things on time. Juuuuust kidding! About the wishlist thingy, not my birthday. That's really happening and I'm super excited about it!! In both good and bad way. I'll talk about it soon, for sure, so check back here soon!

I hope you all had a great first summer as well and I hope days will only get better and better from today on!

Gooood night to all of you going to sleep and good morning to all of you who just woke up :)