Lady with a hat13:16
Remember when in previous post I told you that I'm kind of a neat freak and I know exactly what I want and how I want it? Well, nothing has changed since then, but I'd like to talk some more about it.
I never wanted to be the person who hides in the back and silently just watches what is happening around. I always had to stand out the croud. Always did crazy things, making jokes, sing, dance, anything. But don't worry. There was the time and place for everything. I didn't just jump on the table in the middle of exams and started to sing, just so I'd have all eyes on me. But I mean like, I always wanted for people to remember me. Not because I would have low self esteem, but I wouldn't wanna leave this world quietly like I didn't exsist at all. I want everybody to know that I was here. I did something. Something I did with joy and pleasure.
Like writing a book. For me, it's easier to express myself and my feelings, through the words written down on a piece of paper or, now days, on my computer. I take my time and really think before writing something. I love to write. Plus, books never get old. That will be one of my marks to show the people of next generations I was here. I have been thinking about writing a book for some time now, but to even start with a project like that would equire lots of time and dedication just for that. And that doesn't work for me just now, a girl's gotta make some money and finish studies, and then I'll take my time to write it. I will. You'll read it one day.
Do you ever think about the life after? Or the life we will leave behind? You want to leave your mark so the people, the world will remember?
I would never leave, but hey, you never know what's better to come out there...